tHE LaST daY oF tHe dEcADE.....

Today is already the last day of the decade....

i want to end this decade in full of fun... wanna go shopping..wanna go movies ( i plan to watch alvin and the chipmunks but avatar also sounds good).. i LOVE shopping so000 much...but, I'm not spending much. It's hard for me to look for things that i really like..

sometimes, when i like the MATERIAL, i don't like the DESIGN, and vice versa. AND sometimes when i like both, i don't like the PRICE...haha..

the cute little chipmunk????

or...........................................

 the so-called best film by my friend???????

 *_*

But, i feel really really good as i finally find myself  4 new clothes, 1 shoes that I've been admired for about six months and a red bag(i never have red bag or shoes or even clothes)...i find it kind of cute..then, i also bought a new lappy as my old one is hardly damaged. thank you s0 much dad.. love you n_n

besides, the price is really good... (btw, now is YES- year end sale). actually i saved money along my semester so that i can spend it on holiday..haha..

talking about holiday. now this is the best time i have to check out whether i do what i plan to do.

LIST-TO-DO :

• i WILL read 15 books. now i read 3...huhu.. 

1. i only read another 3.  OMG
   

• i WILL go to sunway lagoon with my sister. I promised her so many times, so i want to fulfill it.

1. i cant because we dont ave the time. She has so many plans with her friends. So, i think next year would be better.
   

• i WILL  pack all my books since we will going to move out in January or February next year. Now, i packed all 3 boxes. but, still there are a LOT of books which i do not pack up yet.

1.  i can say i did it. now, in my house there are only mu sister's book. I can't mess with that because i might throw somethings she likes.
   

• i WILL bake 4 types of cookies and learn how to make curry.

1. haha.. i am now the curry expert. Now i can cook curry and also another few recipes. But, i dont bake any cookies as my oven is damaged

So, i think i did it quite well. BUT i admit i did poor on the books. that is not really good as i love books so much.

>>>>>>>>> FRIENDSHIP <<<<<<<<<<<<<<

TO ALL MY FRIENDS I MET ALONG MY LIFE.....

the day we met, i'll never forget

the time we fight, i'll always regret

the moment we share, i'll keep it down here 

deep down so close in my heart...

now..

distance keep us apart

but it can never broke us apart

the moment you need me

just call me

and 

i'll be there for you

in the middle of the night

i always hope that GOD put you in good hands

so that 

when we meet again

we could love each other even more..

miss u guys...being distance make me realize how important all of u in me.. u keep me alive..

u make me live my life....thanx ..

muahhhhhhhhhhxxxxxxxxxxx

I'm trying to figure out what love is. 

i spend a lot of time trying to figure it out. 

I read books, google, friends, my mum, my dad, and even my aunts.

but still, there is no answer that satisfy me.

i mean, i'm trying to figure out what is love between man and woman.

wikipedia : 

Love is any of a number of emotions related to a sense of strong affection and attachment.

cosmo magazine :

"When you meet someone you really like, you become infatuated, and your body produces a euphoria-inducing, adrenaline-like hormone," explains Pat Love, author of The Truth About Love 

my mum : 

 love is when you feel really good with someone, who inspires you to be better you but not changing yourself into other person. 

(actually it comes with a LOT of advices about men, what's NOT TO DO and so many more. my mum worried so much about it)

my dad: 

love is free to be yourself with that person. you don't have to worry about how you look, what you do. you can be yourself with that person. 

me: really?? it's hard to find that kind of person.

dad: maybe. but, once you find it, you should never let it go. 

me: okay, haa...for example. do you okay with mum in messy hair and bad clothes?

dad : i'm okay with it. I like it best when your mum just put simple make up. i like her the way she is.

(actually, it kinds of odd to talk about this thing with my dad....hahaha. he's kind of shy person)

books: 

love is some kind of emotion that attracts man and woman.at first, It makes you obsessed about that person. you think about him, want to be with him, feeling dizzy. (i think some of it are exaggerated to make it sooooo in fantasy)

at last, i still can't explain what love is. CAN ANYONE?????

WOMEN n_n

i've read this on internet and i think it is really interesting yet true at some point. 

If you kiss her, you are not a gentleman
If you don’t, you are not a man
If you praise her, she thinks you are lying
If you don’t, you are good for nothing
If you agree to all her likes, you are a wimp
If you don’t, you are not understanding
If you visit her often,she thinks it is boring
If you don’t , she accuses you of double-crossing
If you are well dressed, she says you are a playboy
If you don’t , you are a dull boy
If you are jealous, she says it’s bad
If you don’t, she thinks you do not love her
If you attempt a romance, she says you didn’t respect her
If you don’t, she thinks you do not like her
If you are a minute late, she complains it’s hard to wait
If she is late, she says that’s a girl’s way
If you visit another man, you’re not putting in “quality time”
If she is visited by another woman, “Oh it’s natural, we are girls”
If you kiss her once in a while, she professes you are cold
If you kiss her often, she yells that you are taking advantage
If you stare at another woman, she accuses you of flirting
If she is stared by other men, she says that they a just admiring
If you talk, she wants you to listen
If you listen, she wants you to talk

In short:
So simple, yet so complex
So weak, yet so powerful
So confusing, yet so desirable
So damning, yet so wonderful

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>through my lovely holiday<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

I really want to write something. BUT then, all the words just spinning around my head. I don't know what to say. I am really sad to think that my holiday is about to end. It is such a VERY VERY BEAUTIFUL TIME. I've learned a lot along this holiday. I think i am more matured now..hahahaha. I'm NOT saying that i am matured but i am more matured than before. i met new friends, i confronted myself about my feelings towards someone i thought i love. However I'm a little bit scared to go through my new semester in university. I don't want to feel the damn feeling i felt last semester. It is not  a pleasant feeling. I don't know if i am ready for that again.okay..enough with that stuff.

This holiday, i met a guy. For a while, i think i like him. He is nice, a very good listener, caring and a little bit childish (which is a quality i want in a man). He also admit that he likes me. It feels so good to be with him. But, there are something missing. It just like hanging out with my BFF. Then, i confronted with him.

me:  hey, i want to say something... < serious mode>

him :  what? u sound so serious. It is not normal u. is there something wrong? < sweet mode>

me :  no...i'm just....what do u think about us? don't u think that we are moving T00 fast?

him :   i know. It has been only a month we know each other. . I think we both know what we     are doing now, right? i just broke up with my girl and u want to forget someone u loved for so long.

me : yup..that is very true. . BUT , i still think we can be friends. I love to hang out with you.

him : yeah. me too. i feel so good when talking to u. Can i get a hug please? please 3x..

me : ur dream...

That conversation needs a lot of courage of me to start it. And now, we are still hanging out. With no feelings. 

Thanks bro for being my friends and be there when i need u the most. 

 

http://www.love-sessions.com/illusion_love_quiz.htm

http://www.love-sessions.com/illusion_love_quiz.htm

DO we need a boyfriend????????? *_*

Do we need a boyfriend?? I kept asking the question all this time in yhis holiday. It keeps haunting me. Of course now, i do not date anybody + not even in progress to date anybody. I just do not feeling it anymore. 
BUT, my friends keep asking me, my mom asked me, my cousins...
It is like i should have a boyfriend in my age. I know it is normal for girls in my age to have a boyfriend. Most of my friend do have a boyfriend 
( some of them even have SEVERAL bf). 
but, do we need a boyfriend???????????

I don't want to start a relationship because i want a boyfriend. I want to have a relationship with someone who is really important and special to me.

n_n


*_*





Someone who makes my heart beat faster.
Someone who want to be with me 
not because he can't live without me

but because he wants to be with me

Someone who inspires me to become better me and not someone else. 
Who wants to share their heart and let me in to his life.
who completes me
when i find THE ONE, I WILL
without hesitating anything
to hold his hand and never let go.

In this moment,
there is no one who makes me feel like that.

I am really tired of asking question about it. 
It is just i don't want to rush.
I think it will come when GOD thinks I am ready.

My holIDaY....

nOW, i have finished half of my holiday with so many joys, laugh and sometimes too many lazy time. So, now i think it is enough for myself. Now, i want to do something good.  

LIST-TO-DO :

• i WILL read 15 books. now i read 3...huhu
• i WILL go to sunway lagoon with my sister. I promised her so many times, so i want to fulfill it.
• i WILL  pack all my books since we will going to move out in January or February next year. Now, i packed all 3 boxes. but, still there are a LOT of books which i do not pack up yet.
• i WILL bake 4 types of cookies and learn how to make curry

It seems just like a little, but actually it is a lot of work to do. ok, time to work.

CHOP3X... n_n

tHE b00K i rEAD........

Last night, before sleep i read about Kerjaya sbg Pensyarah by Norhasni Zainal Abidin and Mohd Rafaai Ayudin. Why did I read it at the first place is because i would like to be a lecturer. I really want to be a lecturer. It is a good book. It gave me a lot of informations about career as a lecturer.

Now i know, the best way to become a lecturer is i must maintain good result. And after finishing my first degree, someone who want to become a lecturer is preferred to be a tutor first at the university. Mostly, at the university where they had studied. Besides, it would be better for ones to be good at writing to be a better lecturer. It is because, being a lecturer is not jut giving lectures, but also doing research and many more. 

It is a good book. BUT, it has too much narration. thank you by the way for giving me so much information about my dream career. n_n