>>>>> JEALOUSY <<<<<<<

sitting hear thinking of you
dreaming about the day that will never be true..

 Actually, im kinda person that do not  have yet good luck in my love life. The person i like will always like my best friend. Like, in secondary school, i like this guy. I like him so much. He is my bestie untill now. BUT, he liked my roommate. OMG. Then, i helped them out. 
Then, i like my senior. I admired him (he's cute, sporty, cool) haha..we always keep in touch. BUT, later, he liked my best friend. AGAIN. At that time, feel like dont wanna fall for anybody anymore. 
First semester in my university life, i met this guy.  but again and again he likes my bestie.
Untill now, it has been 5 guys i liked that liked my bestfRIEND. I always kept faking my smile to hear they told me stories about all their happy time together with the guys i liked. and, i always told them that i dont like that guy anymore so that they wont feel bad for me.  huhuhu..

By now, i feel so good being single. It is so peace and cool in me. I dont give up for love. Just, now im not desperate to fall in love. I just hope that the time i meet my man,, it will just good time and good place, and good person.

Love is unconditional.

If he is not for you, 

it means there is another better guy/ girl for you. Dont just being sad.

Move on and cheer up. Life is cool.

Sometimes, maybe the best one is not the best for us. And sometimes, just good is the best for us.

LiVe like we'RE dying >.<

 Suddenly turn on the radio and listen to dis song....lalala..


KRIS ALLEN ~~ LIVE LIKE WE'RE DYING

Sometimes we fall down and can't get back up
We're hiding behind skin that's too tough
How come we don't say I love you enough
Till it's to late, it's not too late

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come
We could make a feast from these crumbs
And we're all staring down the barrel of a gun
So if your life flashed before you
What would you wish you would've done

Yeah... gotta start
Lookin at the hand of the time we've been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start pickin it
Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
Gotta live like we're dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying

And if your plane fell out of the skies
Who would you call with your last goodbyes
Should be so careful who we live out our lives
So when we long for absolution
There'll no one on the line

Yeah... gotta start
Lookin at the hand of the time we've been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start pickin it
Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
Gotta live like we're dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying

Like we're dying oh-- like we're dying [x2]

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live -- like we're dying

We never know a good thing till it's gone
You never see a crash until it's head on
All those people right when we're dead wrong
You never know a good thing till it's gone

Yeah... gotta start
Lookin at the hand of the time we've been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start livin it
Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
Gotta live like we're dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying

Like we're dying oh -- like we're dying [x2]

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying
Live like we're dying
[Fade out]

Life is t0o go0d to be wasted n_n

Wake up dis morning with such a good mo0d n_n... and now i know dat life shouldn't just be wasted..

yeah it's true dat life could be unfair, hard, unexpected, but if we look again on the bright side..we will discover dat all of the craps we hate will make our life more beautiful. >.<

For example, i broke up with my ex boyfriend because of long distance relationship. At dat time, i feel like it is the end of me. 

Until one day, in the middle of night i suddenly woke up and think. If i didn't change, nobody would change. 

World will never change. It's all up to me.

Then, i start with a new spirit inside of me. I call my old friends and re-do our relationship. It's true when some people said that when we are in love, we tend to forget our friends. (sorry guys~.~)

And now we are still in a good relationship. I know, the puppy love i had will go nowhere, but when it is end, it felt so hurt. However, it will end someday (because i dont want to marry dat kind of guy). So, i think it was just the best to be ended at that time.

What im trying to say is life is t0o good to be wasted. Don't waste it with just being sad. Do what u want, wherever u want and whenever u want. u deserve to be happy.

Even you ever made mistake but you still deserve to be happy. 

Dont make things worse by being sad. We all can make a better world. It is simple. 

Just make ur little life happy and believe me, all the things around you will be better. 

Sometimes, much much better.

Ive read a book that said

"if you want to be happy, then just be"

HAPPY is unconditional.

Life iS uNexpEctED....

When all the wishes becoming true...

i felt so g0od..

it is really really g0od till..

i forgot about being hurt...

until one day i wake up and it's gone....

it is not about me..but, i ilke to play with words....try to make it sound nice...

                                                 

i had a heart 

but 

i gave it to you

and now..

i cant feel anything..

because  
i gave you mine..

but i dont get yours.

i just love dis kind of questi0ns ^_^

What is your idea of perfect happiness? 

-be grateful wit what u have 

What is your greatest fear?
- lonely-

What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?
-lack of self confidence- (im trying to improve)

What is the trait you most deplore in others?
-judgmental

Which living person do you most admire?
 -MY MOM-

What is your current state of mind?
 -JUST COOL-

On what occasion do you lie?
-when the truth will make my love ones hurt-

What is the quality you most like in a man?
Considerate and family man...

What is the quality you most like in a woman?
-considerate and smart-

Which words or phrases do you most overuse?
"oH my g0odness" my friends also use it now..huhu

Which talent would you most like to have?
-teaching maybe

What is your favorite occupation?
i want to be a lecturer, a businesswoman

What is your most marked characteristic?
Hard working

What do you most value in your friends?
loyalty and accept me for who i am

Who are your favorite writers?
Andrew matthews

What is it that you most dislike?
being judged before they even know me

What is your greatest regret?
That i broke up with my ex..haha

How would you like to die?
In my sleep – fine one day, dead the next

What is your motto?
life is short, make it worth...

.................fLYinG wiTH0ut wiNgS...........

Listen to this song my whole day... Such a meaningful song...s0 guyz...check this out...

FLYING WITHOUT WINGS

Everybody's looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You'll find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be

Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lover's eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings


Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You'll find it in the words of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry

You'll find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

So, impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
Cos who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete


Well, for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
In any given time or place


It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings
Cos you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings


And you're the place my life begins
And you'll be where it ends


I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring
I'm flying without wings

...........my heart feel so empty...

LONELY (^~^)

My bestfriend is having her relationship to the next level....
mY SCHOOLMate is expecting her first baby...
my r0ommate is extremely happy with her boyfriend....


ME??????????????????????


I am still single (huhuhu)....but people always thoght that i already have a boyfriend...
how CRUEL is that?????



I feel so damn alone right now... I dont know if this is the best for me.. mayb GOD want me to focus on my stdudy....but......but, sometimes, i want somebody that can always be there for me... It's true that i have my friends.....







to be honest...
i dont feel anything special towards anybody.... ya, i admit that i had falling for someone... I like him for 7 years..but, he already has a girlfriend..... So, i've been rejected even undirectly...I never tell him...but then...i realized that now i dont like him any more but i like the idea of liking him actually... Such a messy words.. but, that is how i feel right now...


and now...i dont feel for anybody.. actually im tired of that...i just want someone to be with me...